I had a letter from the hospital arrive yesterday and I assumed it would be my scan appointment. I can't pretend I wasn't quite shocked to discover that it was actually an appointment to see a consultant and have a scan done at the hospital anti-natal department! I know this isn't bad news but I was shaken because it was like confirmation that I'm high risk. Also it feels like having to accept that there is the potential for history to repeat itself.
I've spent a long while convincing myself that there is no risk and that everything will be fine this time and I'll be damned if I'm going to let the NHS make me feel any different. I'm back on my positive train of thought now! And I can't wait until I'm treated normally again.

The appointment is at 3:40pm on Tuesday. The letter states that it could take up to 2 hours and so we've arranged for Kath to babysit as it wouldn't be appropriate to take the children along to such a 'serious' appointment. I don't want to worry them.
Also they would be hungry at that time of day and they'd start getting cranky making it difficult for Nigel to concentrate on what we are being told.
But I have to confess to feeling bloomin' dreadful about not taking them. They have always been involved before and they want to be involved again. I just hope everything goes well!

As I'm typing this I'm already getting a nervous feeling in my tummy!