I have been suffering with terrible paranoia! Every day or two I find myself panicking that the baby hasn't moved all day. Then I start to question whether the moves I felt the night before were genuine or whether I imagined them! I know this sounds crazy but I have been putting myself through hell worrying about everything. I think I might investigate using Bach flower remedies to calm my nerves because all of this fretting can't possibly be good for the baby. I'm sure that once I start fretting the baby doesn't move because of all of the negative emotions.
Once I am calm and I've finally managed to reassure myself that I didn't imagine the previous moves the baby wakes up again. Nigel has been great. He offers to take me to the hospital to double check whenever I feel worried.Yesterday I came very close to actually going. perhaps that was the worst I've felt so far. I was really scared. I was close to tears and I thought the only way I could make myself feel better was to go to the hospital. However, I managed to recognise my insane rambling for what they were before making a fool of myself at the hospital.

I need to try to sort myself out because I really don't want them to think I'm worried unnecessarily because I don't want to ruin my chance of a home birth. But on the other hand I need to be confident that everything is okay.
I really must get meditating and doing yoga because there is a chance that this would help a lot.