I have been feeling regular movements. They mainly occur during the evening when I'm relaxing properly. Despite this, I haven't been feeling much more confident to be honest I really am doing my own head in!
Despite feeling certain that the baby must be fine, I am still worrying about the future. I wonder whether I'll worry less after the 20 week scan. I drempt the other night that we had a huge party because we reached 21 weeks! Maybe that'll happen.
People keep telling me that it is normal to worry and that I will probably continue worrying until I am holding my baby in my arms! I usually try to tell the children each time I feel a movement during the day because I think the reassurance does them good, even if I am refusing to feel positive for some reason. Perhaps it is simply hormonal! Each time I mention movements one of the children will cheer and say 'yay it's still alive.' Each time they do this I reply 'of course it is, everything will be fine this time. Even the doctor said so.' But I can't seem to get this into my thick head!

Talking of 'thick' my middle seems to be positively huge! I will meassure it soon. As of tomorrow I'm in my 15th week! See we're getting there aren't we!